The lost wor(l)ds project tackles a lot of “disconnect” for me. It is my first time collaborating on such a (massive) project, first time trying out digital drawing, and the first time I’ve so intentionally unknotted my issues of identity.

    To me, disconnect is a feeling that something is off. Like there is a piece missing, a feeling of incomplete.

    I have never collaborated with others for an art project, not on this scale. I am an only child, which means I am accustomed to listening to my own voice, and being the only voice. However, in collaboration it is no longer just about my voice.
    Initially, working with Chloe’s photography was novel and discomforting.

    I loved her photography. I just did not know how to work with it.

    For a while, I steamrolled the photo with my illustrations. I worked around it or over it, but not with it.

    In the physical drawing process, there is disconnect. Pen and paper are my weapons of choice. Usually, when digital editing/drawing is to be incorporated, it is always done after I hand draw a physical copy. I have little experience in drawing from scratch on a tablet. My (years of) experience in drawing with pen and paper is not enough to help me in the digital illustration process with my stylus and tablet. This physical disconnect is one that I encounter in every photo, and draft with lost wor(l)ds.

    In a strange parallel way, my identity as a Chinese-Canadian is disconnected. I do not resonate strongly with being either Chinese or Canadian. These terms do not mean much to me. If someone were to ask me to define either of these, I am only able to provide stereotypes and clichés.

     Can all this disconnect be resolved? Possibly.

    This collaborative project features two characters: personified illustrations of Space and Time.

    In the conceptualization of Space and Time, this disconnect was something that I began to identify with, but also start redefining.

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    Space
    Before designing Space there was one thing I was sure of. Space was going to have an unruly mop of hair. Her silhouette was one that was going to flow and be rounder.

    Time
    Time was trickier to design because she is typically thought of as an old wise man with a beard. Although her look was slowly pieced together, the one word that I used to design Time was structure. Her silhouette and poise will always be more structural in nature.

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    So how do these two seemingly opposing ideas interact? How do they interact in a photo? How do they interact with the photo? If one were to stop, what would the other be doing? Would this be connected to previous photos?

    I was searching to an End of the story. I expected Space and Time to move through the project and come to terms with an Ending or a definitive answer.

    1.     Space and Time do not have to occur in the same moment

    2.     If Space and Time did occur in the same moment, they would never physically touch one another.

    I am quite fond of these two interactions between Space and Time. There is an infinite disconnect between Space and Time. But however Space and Time exist as a series of disconnects, if they exist within this series, isn’t it a connection (woah)?

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     Is there something I am looking for?

    Before, I was looking for an Answer to why there was so much disconnect.

    Now, I am looking for redefinition: of my identity, art, and process. ‘

    Grace is the illustrator for lost wor(l)ds, you can read her bio here.